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Okay guys, I’m scared. I’m scared to start again. I’m scared I’ll fail again and be back here. I’m scared that I can’t do Insanity. I’m scared that I can. I’m scared of what my life might be like it I actually get where I want to be or if it doesn’t.
My whole life I’ve let fear control me, and I’m sitting here watching weightloss shows. I just made a schedule plotting out the days on the calendar of Insanity for the next 2 months. I’m moving out in 3 weeks so I hope that the change in scene and getting away from the unhealthy food in my family… I hope that will help.
But I’m so afraid of it all and it’d be so nice to have someone tell me it’s okay to be afraid to even start.
I like it! Monday! Let’s start!
I’m looking for fellow people who are about to go through the intensity with me.
As most of you know, protein is pretty much key for those of who are working hard to build muscles to support our fitness goals. If you kick butt at the gym but don’t rejuvenate your muscles with high protein foods and supplements you’ll actually do more damage to them than help them. If you rely on only meat you’re going to be eating ALOT of meat all day long, and even if you’re vegan you’ll be eating ALOT of soy. Supplements help us avoid having to eat 20 egg whites a day.
Before I discuss which ones I think are the best, I’m gonna give a crash course in the different KINDS of protein in these shakes.
If you’ve ever been into a GNC than I’m sure you’ve been absolutely over whelmed by the sheer number of different kinds of proteins from different companies! Here are some recommendations with pros and cons. These are only my opinion and of course this is based on my current level of need in regards to protein. You could need more or less.
#1 Dymatize Nutrition’s Elite Whey Protein Isolate.
Overall I thought it tasted pretty good but it’s not my favorite in the Whey world.
2) For my vegan friends I have tried a few. I like soy but apparently my body does so I had to discontinue my search the one that stood out comes from the kitchen of my childhood best friend.
3) Years ago I had a teacher who told me that dairy was the devil and a friend of mine from college said she wanted to see if what he said had any credence. There are a lot of egg supplements that are nasty but here’s one I like.
Healthy & Fit 100% Egg Protein
I know it looks dorky with the guy holding up the letters but this is not bad.
#5) My favorite protein powder.
Muscle Milk! This is funny because out of all the ones I’ve tried this is the one I’ve known about the longest. I can remember my dad giving me some of this in like the early 90s and I thought it was so gross but they’ve improved their recipe in the last 20 years and it really is a stellar product form Cytosport. They also have a host of alternative products. (Sometimes at work I buy their cold drinks).
So there you go, some recommendations out of maybe the 30 or so that I’ve tried.
Instead of taking a bus to go sign the lease today I decided to walk AFTER work. Go me! I probably walked 3 miles and besides the blisters I feel really good. I think I’m going to sit down and write a proper review post for the many MANY protein shakes I’ve tried over the last month or so and put it up tomorrow complete with links to places you can get them for cheaper instead of GNC. ;) Girls gotta save money where she can. I’m really excited to get back into blogging on tumblr. I miss this community SO much and I’m so excited to move out on my own and really get my life back on track.
So I finally checked and over the past like 2 months I’ve gained 10 pounds. It wasn’t as soul crushing as it usually is, I guess because I know that I’ve been eating like shit and laying in bed all the time. I now weigh 371 pounds. 18 month and 50 pounds added on. Sheesh. I was looking at tights that I’ve always wanted and I decided not to buy them. 1 they were $29 for the 3x but also what’s the point in buying new clothes NOW when I totally intend on losing weight.
Once I move into a new place I’m going to get going with the weightless. I’ve already started. Today from this point forward, no fast food and no ordering out. If I’m hungry I’m going to cook the fish and veggies I have in my freezer right now.
These past few months have been the worst for me. I couldn’t stick to any kind of eating plan or workout anything. Soul crushing depression. Weight gain. Family stress. Nothing seemed to be going well but I should be moving into a better situation soon. College starts September 3rd and I’m really really excited to be back in college. They surprised me and gave me a need based scholarship that’s going to give me $2000 for housing each semester. With that money I will be able to at least not stress over paying my rent each month. It is a BLESSING 10 fold to have that extra money coming to me, even if it’s not going to hit my bank account until October. That means I’ll have an extra $500 a month until the next semesters $2000 check.
Family things are just depressing. I should have done a lot of things better but I didn’t. Not that I don’t love them but I am 25 and childless and that means what I’m doing with my life isn’t the same for other family members who have children and responsibilities that I don’t have. I want to live the next 5-7 years childless and free while I focus on getting my degree and building my photography career. I love my niece and nephew so much, but I don’t want the responsibility of helping to raise them. It’s a lot and bless her heart, my sister is pretty much doing it herself. I will pray for her but the next few years are about me. I should have done this a long time ago.
I’m excited to have a free gym on campus which is something I haven’t been able to afford for awhile. Hopefully I will also be able to see a therapist on campus too, and once I get my head right I’ll be able to start eating better and get back to healthy living. For anyone who tells you it’s just calories in or calories out that’s bullshit. Mental health is just as important as physical health, and if you aren’t mentally doing well you won’t be able to do the other things you need to do to be a healthy individual. I’m looking forward to my very busy future, and I hope to get back to blogging and interacting with the tumblr community.
The next couple years are going to be about getting myself healthy, getting myself in a position to be successful and getting myself in a position to be the kind of woman I want to be. As much as I love someone in my lifeI must repair myself before I try and be someones girlfriend or wife. I have hope that I will be able to do that.
I love you all. For the 800 or so subscribers who stayed around. Seriously thank you so much. I love that you still sort of believe in me even though I disappeared.
This is my new workout! Excited to begin!
You will be working out 3 days per week - Monday, Wednesday and Friday. Cardio can be performed first thing in the morning, or post-resistance training.
Dumbbell Squat ★ 3 sets ★ 10-15 reps
Dumbbell Bench Press ★ 3 sets ★ 10-15 reps
One Arm Dumbbell Row ★ 3 sets ★ 10-15 reps
Standing Dumbbell Curl ★ 3 sets ★ 10-15 reps
Two Arm Seated Dumbbell Extension ★ 3 sets ★ 10-15 reps
Sit Up ★ 3 sets ★ 10-25 reps
Dumbbell Step Up ★ 3 sets ★ 10-15 reps
Dumbbell Stiff Leg Deadlift ★ 3 sets ★ 10-15 reps
Seated Dumbbell Press ★ 3 sets ★ 10-15 reps
Standing One Leg Dumbbell Calf Raise ★ 3 sets ★ 10-20 reps
Dumbbell Shrug ★ 3 sets ★ 10-15 reps
Dumbbell Side Bends ★ 3 sets ★ 10-15 reps
Dumbbell Lunge ★ 3 sets ★ 10-15 reps
Dumbbell Floor Press ★ 3 sets ★ 10-15 reps
Dumbbell Pullover ★ 3 sets ★ 10-15 reps
Standing Hammer Curl ★ 3 sets ★ 10-15 reps
Lying Dumbbell Extension ★ 3 sets ★ 10-15 reps
Lying Floor Leg Raise ★ 3 sets ★ 10-25 reps